IT'S A BOY!

We went to the doctor yesterday and found out we are having a BOY! We all knew or felt it was a boy and were not too surprised. I just felt that it was a boy the entire time. My mom checked Isabel out of school early for us and so Isabel went with us. She was so excited and of course Joey is beside himself! She said "I told you it was a boy!" He is such an active little thing! He flipped around so many times it took her a little bit to get his heart rate because the little cutie wouldn't hold still.

I feel just so blessed that God would give us another baby so soon. Even though our due date was July 11th and still is set at that, Jan (our ultra sound tech) said it was measuring at July 9th as of yesterday. This is only one day after we had little Grayson oddly enough. Which makes me realize how great God is to give us a 2nd one all in one year, how amazing! Dr. Tucker has said though that he will take him as early as 36 weeks no later than 37 weeks. So we are thinking the 2nd to last week in June.

Of course I cried all afternoon yesterday mainly because I kept thinking of Grayson and feeling overwhelmingly blessed to have this little guy at the same time...grief is a very odd thing as it is but very strange in my situation as well. I grieve for Grayson every day and cry for her at least once a day lately but its so odd because its times I begin bonding with this little guy that I think of her. I did start to feel him move a couple of days ago and really yesterday felt him quite a bit. I think God told him to just remind his mommy that hes in there and fine! :)

I have to admit I have been a little taken over by some fear this week. Fear of the worst, but I was reminded today by an unbelivable sister in Christ Judy B that God does not give me this fear. Satan is working over time to take every ounce of joy out of us for this baby. She reminded me that God loves this baby more than I could ever imagine, that God is in charge and not satan and that he will not torment me if I can hold tight to the truth! ....thank you Judy you are amazing and thank you for praying with me today!

So now sadly enough I still have a nursery full of pink that needs to be dealt with. So when I get ready I will replace the pink with blue. I assume Ill probably wait until the night before he comes! :) My dear friend Heather is having a boy and there is a very good chance that we will have them on the same day! She lives in Texas and is coming to visit in March so I am hoping and thinking that her being here will help get me excited to do some shopping!

Thank you for your prayers every one of them are felt!

doctor appointment

Its has been a little while since I have posted an update but my doctor appointment is not for a few more weeks. However I managed to slip in an appointment a week ago so I wanted to tell you about it! A week ago Friday I was at work and had been feeling bad the few days before. My legs and my arms have been going numb and aching pretty bad. They had gotten worse on Friday morning. My job has been stressful to say the least the past month and I was pretty sure this is why I was having these problems. But I began to panic a little that morning because I thought that this was a sign of a miscarriage. I called my doctor and they said they were about to close early for the day but to just come in anyways. I got in my car and called one of my close friends and just began to cry. I think I knew in my heart that everything was fine but I began to think of the day I left work to "run up to the doctor to just get checked real quick" to find out we had lost Grayson. I was a little overwhelmed. My friend reminded me that I have slipped up on my quite times with my bible studies lately and I knew that this is why my peace had started to get stirred up lately.

When I got the the doctor I waited about an hour and I prayed and tried to just think good thoughts but my mind kept wondering back to the day we lost Grayson. SO FINALLY they called me back and Dr. Tucker came in and I started crying and he went ahead and checked the heart beat and of course the little thing was still there! So we talked a while and he told me that he thought stress was a contributing factor to why my arms and legs were like this. But that also when your pregnant this can happen and that we would just watch it. I had also been taking a ton of Zofran for sickness and he said there was a possibility that it could cause this. So I was about to leave and he asked me if I wanted to just go downstairs and get an ultrasound. I got so excited! I said "Really I can?" He said of course and to just go downstairs because they were closing. SO when I went downstairs the lady who did all my ultra sounds with Grayson was there. Her name is Jan. She is the one who told me we had lost Grayson that day. When she saw me she asked me if there was a problem finding the heart beat and I assured her it was there but that I was just an insane pregnant women stressed out who would appreciate seeing her baby! She was SOOO sweet and there was no one waiting! I asked her to record it so I could surprise Joey with it. We had not seen the baby yet only a heart beat before. SO she hooked me up and there the little thing was! Strong heart beat and everything. It only kicked its little legs a couple of times and she said this was completely normal at 3 months that they don't move hardly at all at this time. The fun and peaceful part was that she let me lay there a very long time and just watch it. We talked about Grayson and about this baby and it was so nice! I appreciate her so much for that!

So that night I went home and gave the pictures to Joey and we watched it. He was so excited and kept pausing it on the baby's "parts" to try to figure out what it was. Jan said she had an idea but it was still to early to tell. But I am almost certain its a boy! Who knows though!

Thank you for caring and most importantly praying and I pray for GOd to continue to give us complete peace. There is no one in the world that can tell me ANYTHING to make me at peace or show me anything. I am confident it can ONLY come from Him and thats what my entire days have to be filled with in order to receive it!

Will keep you posted in the next few weeks!