Phil Wickham

I was beginning to worry about myself a couple of months ago because I went through a "dry" spell of not crying over Grayson. I was beginning to think that something was really wrong with me because I was not grieving the way I had the past few months before. HOwever last week changed all of that for me! Joey and I went to a Phil Wickham concert at Pinelake Church and if you don't know already I will tell you I am a HUGE fan of his! I started listening to him right about the time I found out I was pregnant with Grayson. His music is so moving to me and I certainly feel the peace of God every song he plays. I began listening to Divine Romance and played it in the mornings as I would get ready for work really just praising God for giving us Grayson. When we lost her Joey had his I-POD at the hospital and I listened to that song laying there and about lost my mind I was so overwhelmed listening to it. However we played the song at her service and it has always been such a special song to me.

The day of the concert Joey picked me up from work early so we could get tot he concert. (Okay so the show started at 6:30 and we got there at 4!!) But we got front row seats!! My mother in law, and sister and brother in law came with us as well. As we were sitting on the front row (about the only ones in there!) Phil walked out and I about fell out of my chair! However he was talking to a few guys and I didn't want to interrupt and so I just sat there as he walked away thinking what an idiot I was for passing up my one chance to meet him!

ABout an hour later Chip the pastor at Pinelake came out and introduced himself to me. He then told me to follow him to take me on a tour of the church. (random) so we all got up and went with him and long story short my mother in law had e mailed Chip many weeks ahead and had this arranged for me. We went in the back and there he was! I wanted to just shake his hand and tell him how much his music has meant to us and how we used his song at Grayson's service. Instead of course I began to cry like never before! He probably thought I was an insane fan! But i told him about how my early days home from the hospital how I sat in front on the computer praying and singing his praise songs and how they got me through so much. It was very overwhelming meeting him but so exciting! The show was amazing!

SO ever since then I have had no problem crying over missing Grayson. It all came back which I guess is a good thing and I am sure that being pregnant does not help my emotions any either!

We go to the doctor on the 23rd so I would appreciate all your prayers for peace. I feel everything is okay but sometimes get nervous just hoping the little thing is still there when I get there!

I will keep you updated and I hope you have a Merry Christmas!!