Good News

Well as you probably can tell by now Joey and I are expecting another baby. We are of course so excited and feel extremely blessed. Especially because it happened much sooner than we anticipated! I am exactly 2 months this weekend. We went to the doctor last Tuesday for our first check up and the baby had a very strong heart beat and Dr. Nichols said everything looked really good. She has high hopes for this pregnancy.

Some people are confused about what happened with us and think that we are a "high risk" pregnancy because of losing Grayson, but this is gratefully not the case at all. My doctor likes to call it a "High Situation" :) Meaning our feelings! There is no reason at all to expect this to end in any other way other than the outcome of a healthy baby. Of course unless God has other plans and I know now I can handle whatever he brings us. My doctor did say she was "renting" us out to another doctor for the coming months of pregnancy because she is actually not delivering anymore :( But she did say she will assist in our delivery. The doctor she gave us to is Dr. Tucker and is in the same group as her and he also specializes in "High Risk" pregnancy. Starting at 28 weeks they are going to begin letting us have a different kind of ultra sound that actually measures the movement of the baby as well as length of the cord etc... so if anything just to give us a piece of mind as to movement versus cord growth. She even said we could do this as much as once a week starting at 28 weeks and that as early as 37 weeks if we were nervous or depending on the growth they would take the baby that early! So our due date is July 11th but we are hoping to have it the end of June.

We have known since the day before Halloween but just chose to wait till we went to the doctor before announcing it. I have been extremely sick though and very tired so I had a feeling everything was okay because my doctor always said that was a good sign being that sick so early on.

Of course this is all so exciting but strange to me in a way as well. I miss Grayson so much, I think more now than before. When we were at the doctor all I could think about was that day I was last in there getting an ultra sound and when I heard th heart beat i actually for a minute was thinking it was still Grayson....weird I know. Isabel of course is so excited. Bless her little heart, she even said that she thinks Grayson helped Jesus clean my tummy out to get ready for this new baby. I love that little thing and love her big ole heart she has for Jesus, it makes me so happy the way she loves him.

I really am not that stressed over this besides feeling so sick! I am actually at peace. I know God is in control as he has proven to us in so many ways and also to us that He will take care of us no matter what. There certainly are no promises other than His love. Even if this baby is completely healthy and born there is still nothing certain ever which is why I have decided to finally just take a step back and breath a little instead of worrying.

I have also learned that all the material things are NOT important to me at all! I do not want showers or anything at all for this baby. I know this sounds so cold but my focus is on taking care of myself and praying like crazy and I just cant allow myself to "prepare" the way i did before. It was the biggest disappointment of my life and I just cant allow myself to do some of the things I did before. We also have our nursery still up from Grayson. So if its a boy we will just take down all the pink and if its a girl, then its ready to go anyways!

Thank you all for caring and more importantly for praying it means the world to us. I will keep you updated as we know things.

Love,

Gretchen and Joey and Isabel